Naniwanism

so I could sketchily feel I am invincible with any problem. But I still hurt myself when I hurt someone really nice. I do not know how I can be nice to someone again whom I hurt unintentionally... I know the declaration that I made is cruel to him but I should have made because I should be honest to both him and me. And I know what I should say to him for the next time..... it's the simple word. But I am stuck at the middle of the sad for hurting someone nice. The time flow always gives me an answer later. So I know I do not need to feel hurt logically because I made by myself, but I still feel sad with when I hurt somebody... But I believe myself because I have overcome many troubles that I made with my friends. Even if it took a long time to recover since I was sucked, I made it better for both me and them. I believe I can do it for this time too. If you want to call me dreamer, that's fine.

I just read the news said that 2 victims were shot by the gun at separate places in the city. Another news said that the crime more often happened in the city as the investigator analyzed at the middle of this month. I have been surprised with that there were many guns were exchanged in the city. Two people shot in unrelated attacks in SF Proliferation of guns blamed for epidemic of violence in S.F.

I tried to use an application named "name analyzer," it gives some meaning from my name. Here we are.... A: Artistic K: Kind I: Independent H: Helpful I: Influential R: Respectful O: Overjoyed ..... .... ... .... I like all meanings except the last one. It sound like I'm hyper :p I have not been drunk for a while :(

I read a Japanese personal website called, "文明が衰亡するとき," translated title, "The moment when the civilization is ruined." The website introduced how civilization such as Japan was going to be ruined, The web owner believed Japanese culture has not been ruined, but its policy has, pointed out why many people in Japan believed Japan has been under destructive situation, explained what corruption in Japan is. He added the ancient Rome King's last words at the last part of the web page. The writer often cited books, historical people's phases, and some sentences from Catholic bible. Sorry the website is all Japanese... Citation: http://www.qmss.jp/strategy/condition/decline.htm