Naniwanism

I had the birthe day on this week. I should not say it but I spend it alone.... I know I cannot invite anyone, friends must have gone to their family to have a thanxgiving dinner, and see their family and old friends. Moreover, I should not have invited anyone on that day because I was in the dark. So, I did not affect anyone negatively, so I reject meeting anyone. I have been in the dark for a long time since I had a lot of bad coincedences have happened in this year. And I could not have found anythinig which makes me happy out yet. As long as I have been down, I do not want to influence anyone with my depression. So I should be alone even if I'm in lonely... But it's rather than I influence my friends negatively. Here is the half moon which I shooted on Nov 27. Let me hope it will cure my any depressive perspectives. Hope I will be energish back again.

Here is another set of pictures on the full moon night. I wanted to take some piture of the layers of light in the city, but these picture showed slightly darker groups of the lights. These pictures does not differ a lot but I like the second picure since it could show the brighter light lines compered with the first one.

This picture of the full moon was taken on the early day in this month. It was a small round shape but it was also a beautiful silver blighting sphere in the dark. When I am depressed, I suddenly feel like to go out, mostly to ocean, to merely see the moon. I might talk like a idiot or psycho, but I love to watch to the moon, especially the full moon, because the moon light might make me calmed down, relaxed, or released from any negative aura.

The police cars stopped at my neighber's house.... again. As I counted, 5 police cars surrounded a whole block. Also as I could understand from my experience, a criminal might have more dangerous than a knife. But it's totally not sure. In fact, I have seen it has happened twice since I have lived here. I know I might be better move to somewhere else but I do not want because of my roommate. I was not scared with that happened but let me just hope my neighber could be calmer or quieter. .....Please.